Glad we got the win against NYP on wed. Hoping to open a 'block' party with TP later. Finally got the chance to play them, can't wait. My emotions were erratic these few days. Up & down and over again. Don't know what I can do about it too. Gotta chiong Juliet's assignment now before my attachment interview at 1+. The major sad part is that DID's starting on August 17!!! =( No holidays for me I suppose. Sucks. There're like so many things that I would love to do before everything starts. Haiz.
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9:40 AM
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Match against NYP later. Glad my fever subsided. I am really confused and ... I feel really down and out. Am I really in the wrong? My heart felt like as broken as the day he left my family. How did things ever ended up like this? I wanna escape from everything. If only I could... I regret...
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10:28 AM
Monday, July 27, 2009
This sem is definitely a terrible one. For once I was really hoping for school to end ASAP. I have no idea what went wrong and little went right. I didn't wait for 9 months for you to tell me that. I kinda had more than my fair share of crap thrown at me for one sem. Hopefully I find a way out of all of this. According to lucky star's pm: "What will you do when the one thing you live for leaves you?" Fever really came at a wrong time now. According to haha, I'm the last person he'll expect to suffer from an illness. Probably due to overwhelming stress that is suppressed within me. But least my IVP jacket came in handy. I'm feeling cold most of time.
Life sucks... I feel disoriented, feverish, weak, having low morale, like a fool, like a fool once again, like knocking my head against the wall, running away from everything, starting a new life again, going out with zaney, going out with my bros to marina barrage, like ending any thoughts about what could have been and the list goes on and on...
Glad NP vball men's team finally gotten our first win against RP yesterday. Was a pretty slack game but I'm glad we got the win. After losing to SP on wednesday, POL-ITEs are somewhat over for us. Can't wait to play TP this Friday.
Went for World Harmony Run this morning. Wasn't as fun but I'm glad I was there. Haha.
Snoozed my afternoon away. Planning on doing
Deadlines are C-O-M-I-N-G!!!
Freaky. So much work to do. Don't wanna bank on last minute work again.
List: WISP presentation Cor Com Brochure Juliet's Assignment Booking of NParks venue
Hope I get through this.
Pbf???
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7:01 PM
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Well, glad we played well yesterday. A little mistakes from everyone here and there but we did good. Let's win the next 2 games and play well against TP next Friday.
I've made my choice...
WISP LATER!!! I'm presenting alone. -_____________________- Oh well. Take care zink!!!
Gotta do my cue cards now.
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8:19 AM
Monday, July 20, 2009
Feeling damn lousy now. Win as a team, lose as a team. Next bah. But the way we lost really gets me.
Gotta chiong for WISP now.
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10:41 PM
Thursday, July 16, 2009
I NEED SLEEP!!! Haven been snoozing well this week. Slacking in HMS office now. Gonna start work soon. Heidi's essay's due tml. Sian. With vball training tml too. I need my sleep.
Next week's gonna be a mentally and physically tough week for me to handle. POL-ITE games starts on monday!!! Against ITE. Heard they're pretty strong this year. Then there's Juliet's test on Tuesday and match against SP on Wednesday. Piang eh. Finally NYP on Friday.
Got my jeysey yst. Haha. Number 15!!! Adidas some more. Shall unload the pic in my next post. Hehe.
Thinking of snoozing early. Gonna go hm soon.
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4:43 PM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Working now. Very bo liao now. HAHA. Being stoning for quite a while le.
Managed to finishing chionging Janice's essay yesterday. Man for once I didn't manage to feel the urgency to wanna complete the essay asap. Maybe it could be due to my lack of motivation. Results don't matter to me le bah. Least I think I did give Janice good quality work. Hopefully I can find strength and motivation to strive for heidi's essay which is due this friday.
Volleyball training's TML!!! can't wait. After watching all the vball vids on youtube. I'm hyped up and motivated. As high as the times when I watch wonder girls' nobody vid. DAMN HIGH!!! And emma watson is chio. No joke. Haha.
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11:58 AM
Monday, July 13, 2009
Piang eh, she damn chio...
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11:30 AM
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Haha's lappy gg. Jialat. Tecky, u're next. Haha. Who ask us to all get the same model. HAHAHAHA!!!
Fєng| *haha lappy gg sia *u're next tecky. 得新。 says: *hahaha *LOL *gg? Fєng| *good game *say bb tecky. 得新。 says: *hahaha *ok *u guys too rought with laptop Fєng| *zzz *we not gentle enough *we like it rough *rough n wild *(:* tecky. 得新。 says: *hahaha *lol *right. *rough and wild *wear 2 if u are afraid of breaking the condom Fєng| *haha *zzz *we can't keep our hands off our lappy tecky. 得新。 says: *hahahaahaha *right *i mean wrap the condoms over ur mouse la. *in case ur mouse break down ma Fєng| *zzz *no use *gym too much le *we can be very excited and become very forceful tecky. 得新。 says: *use ur musepad *mousepad *spoil it if u can *i will laugh
On a quick note, I suddenly have no idea when my POL-ITE games are. Maybe Friday. So ambiguous. Piang eh. Wan play ASAP!!! Realise I only improve on my game after playing a competition. That's why you really gain new experiences and mature as a player. After watching vball clips on youtube. I'm like so motivated. I wanna train hard n play hard. To reach galvin's standard. Then build up slowly from there.
I kinda lost the interest in bball le. Non-competitive bball's just too boring, fear of getting injured too. Not like vball. You only worry about yr fingers. You don't have to worry about how high you jump and there's more freedom. Not like bball. Shit.
Haha, still left with a huge part of Janice's essay to complete. 400 words and half a transcript and yet I'm still so relaxed. Funny.
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9:17 PM
Friday, July 10, 2009
Officially one of my favourite songs now. Maybe because I can relate to it very well. Yesterday's meeting with Principal was fruitful. Me & jy got invited into his huge office!!! Damn big!!!. Piang eh, both of us were nervous like crazy. Haha. Gotta meet him again next week. Rush rush. Our run registration hopes to open early next month. Gotta chiong!!!
Next week's a busy week!!! POL-ITEs!!! Janice's assignment!!! Heidi's assignment!!! Meeting with Principal!! Run Meeting!!!
Piang eh. Hopefully everything goes well!
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9:12 AM
Monday, July 6, 2009
Botak Bros!!! Went to cut BOTAK at Hair For Hope 2009 with loads of ppl. Sponsored by Dr red. Biggest thanks to him for sponsoring us and treating us to HAN's. Now all of us bros are BOTAK!!! Damn cool. 4 of us sitting at the back of the cls botak tgr. HAHAHA. Glad I did it. To help spread the awareness and I was kinda surprised that there were a number of girls who cut BOTAK as well. Haha.
Sch was boring as usual. Thankfully manny & jing jing are back! Kinda missed them especially the man. Felt weird not disturbing her for a week in sch. And she got me a pair of LEVI's!!! Thanks sia!!! My last pair was tored in Cambodia that it was beyond repair. Now I got a levi's from USA!!! Yay!!! But I still gotta pay her lah. Zzz.
Might be joining the Pesta Sukan Volleyball Championships with Sports Right this year. Cool stuff. Hopefully I can get to play a few games even though I know I would be coming from the bench. Gotta pia hard.
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9:33 PM
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Ah kai's GOING BOTAK LATER!!! With all 4 of my brothers, Bryan, Kay Yong, Zhi Qiang, Marcus & Dr Red. So gonna be fun. Doing for the Children's Cancer Society initiative. Haha. Hopefully Dr Red got enough money to sponsor all of us. Haha.
Btw, training on Friday was damn jia lat. Only us playing in the centre position did heavy PT. Squating position under the basketball board with hands touching the floor and jumping up to touch the board with 2 hands!!! 6 reps of that amounts to 1 set and WE HAD TO DO 10 SETS!!! I did more than that before when coach called me over to try it out. -_________________-!!! Then same thing but the incorporation of our shifting of legs to right and left. 5 reps on each side amounts to 1 set and 10 SETS ALTOGETHER!!! Now my back and legs are both aching!!!
Then I had some crap vball competition where we lost 2 of 3 games. HAHA!!! All in the name of fun. Mistakes a plenty. Tanning too. Hehe. Had no regrets. Besides, couldn't jump too much due to the aching pain on my legs.
Glad to have kenna DID for my attachment. Interview this week's gonna kill me man. Jialat. Haven done any work at all too =( No mood. Though it's not a good excuse but when u no mood means u no mood right? Haha. Hopefully can get some work done with haha later. My priority now is the drafting of my CV, cover letter and other stuff I need to prepare for next week.
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9:38 AM
Friday, July 3, 2009
Gotten new lappy on Tuesday. Been choinging FM that I have no time to blog. Haha. Sch's boring lately. Can't wait for training to start later. Realised that I am through withstanding all the shit that has been thrown at me. Resulting in a few outbursts that surprised a lot of people. Enough is enough I guess. I reached my limit. So many years of not fighting back is enough to take. There's obviously the pros & cons of it but I hope that I don't go too overboard abt it. Oh well. What's done is done and I feel that I do not really have to apologise for anything so far. Having some I&E vball competition tml. Teaming up with ah ben, dom, ian and 3 others whom I have not met up with yet. Haha. Oh well.
Week 13's so gonna murder me!!! Heidi & Janice's assignment to hand in! POL-ITEs! Argh!!! Hopefully I buck up to settle my assignments next week. Haha. Hopefully...
Gonna start completing some stuff before meeting tecky later.
